It still doesn't feel like you are half a world away. I'm just waiting for you to open the front door and say you are home. Every time Molly or Bailey hear a loud truck they think it is you. I have to keep telling Molly that you are at "work."
Today has been better than yesterday and better than what I expected it to be. I just had to keep myself busy so the house is clean as much as Molly allows it to be. I'm actually looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I'm scared I'll miss a call but I need to get out of the house and my mind off of everything. I just feel like the day has dragged and I am looking forward to going to bed tonight.
Molly has been really good. Surprisingly. She has been super cuddly and lovey. At one point today while I was crying she came over to give me a hug and kiss, gave me the wipes to blow my nose, and told me "It's ok mommy." Which made me cry even more. She's also been holding onto her daddy doll all day and hugging it. Every time she asked for you I tear up or just flat out cry. Even when she does these little things I just wish you were here to see. She keeps asking me to do backpack or swing and I feel horrible because I can't do them with her.
Ava has been kicking up a storm, so much so you would be able to feel her. Figures she starts to go really crazy the day after you leave.
We love you and miss you tons and tons babe. Can't wait for July to be here.
